All you have left

  1. The ghost of your mothers kiss on your forehead.
  2. A rucksack: 
  3. Your birth certificate, passport, 
  4. Those sandals you just had to get in the sale: the same sandals salvaged from the ruble of your room.
  5. Your own arms to comfort blanket wrap around your torso. 
  6. Your beating heart. A soundtrack barrel bombs and dud drone beats tried to drown out 
  7. Memories: Adnan being a boy, his midnight black eyes sparkling like the stars just had to live there when he laughed, the smell of the lemon tree that stood for decades in your back garden and still stands defiantly, your grandmothers wrinkled hands trying to photograph your face to memory whilst she trips over duas under her breath from going too fast. 
  8. 17 years of love. Playback moments in the cinema of your mind. 
  9. Your feet. One foot after another. 
  10. Hope. You will find her at the bottom of your backpack, she always hides in the darkest of places in the darkest of time. 

How did God manage to destroy the dinosaurs on your watch?

The day the dinosaurs died could have been like any other Mother:

June afternoon, 16.2 degrees Celsius, hot and humid,

The kind of day that made you wish you could plunge into pools

Starfish spread on the surface of the water and float your way to heaven.


Except on this day the heavens had split at the seams, spilling destruction relentlessly

barrage after barrage of rain water; eclipsing the summer sun and smothering your Marigold's.

With nothing to do and nowhere to go God grew restless.


First he lined up his toy soldiers, drew lines in the cobalt blue of his suede carpet,

As they were about to fire he thought better of war.

But the dinosaurs were ripe for extinction,

He had grown bored of these backward plastic models,

The comet of commercialsation had convinced Godfrey

he needed the new ROBO-ULTRABOT 3000Tyrannosaurus Rex, Trachodon,

and Stegosaurus!

I couldn't stop him, fiver year old fingers dashed mini dinosaurs that were once mighty in his affections into the fireplace, He waited till night,

Its only when burning plastic crawled down my throat and threatened to choke me that I knew things weren't alright.